2 May 2010
presentation of work
The Final piece and evaluation *drum roll please*
Diary of a self harmer by Dani Martin
So i finally finished editing together my work and uploading it. And here it is. Overall i prefer it alot to my christmas peice which was diar compaired to this in my own personal view. I wanted to work alot more on producing that polished look in comparison to my last video which i personally felt was abit poor in quality. I desided you use a more natural lighting, and editing it alot slower, with more transitions and more panning shots included. I wanted to insted of pressing on the idea of sorta horror, dark, ect which is what my last video was leaning more towards, this one i wanted to give the audience more of an understanding of how emotionally numb and slow and just well, the video being slow i think it just explains some of the feelings abit more then focusing on the torment of my first video. I kept some of the visuals the same, and added more, such as the scribbled out face was and idea that steamed from the idea of not being able to show who u really are, hiding, mixed with the scribble scene form my first scene. i think the lip scene, while not being so dark, captures the feeling of being silenced abit better being sandwhiched between the two images in the mirror, the first showing that the person does want to ask for help,but the touching of the mirror implying intrapment, and while being alot lighter and less contrasted (in lighting this scene) is doesnt seem so horrific, but still keeps its power.i used cross fades as the transition of choice and this was done to show one moment blurring into another which is what is often felt. like its all leading on from each other. and i also used the diary for the start and final images because of the idea that what we are seeing is the visual interpriation of the diary. The music played an important role in helping to order the visuals, as well as choosing to edit alot slower rahter then the style before of just POWPOWPOW one image after another flashing on screen. I also decided to take abit of a surrealist idea in the 'dream sequence' which is the candles surrounding the objects of self harm and sucide, and then showing the person waking up, but it doesnt end after she does. my favourite scenes are the two start 'numbs' the skin one and the hand one, just because they fit so well in with the music, and prob the least fave part is the 'still' from the video of the scribbled out face with the numb wrote on it, just due to the fact that it looks to static, the other images that i used 'stills' from the video doesnt look to bad because they are editing amongst other things, and if i had to redo one thing it would to animate that still slightly. Personnally i am alot more confident in this piece then i was my original video (before christmas) and feels it works alot better as a piece.
So i finally finished editing together my work and uploading it. And here it is. Overall i prefer it alot to my christmas peice which was diar compaired to this in my own personal view. I wanted to work alot more on producing that polished look in comparison to my last video which i personally felt was abit poor in quality. I desided you use a more natural lighting, and editing it alot slower, with more transitions and more panning shots included. I wanted to insted of pressing on the idea of sorta horror, dark, ect which is what my last video was leaning more towards, this one i wanted to give the audience more of an understanding of how emotionally numb and slow and just well, the video being slow i think it just explains some of the feelings abit more then focusing on the torment of my first video. I kept some of the visuals the same, and added more, such as the scribbled out face was and idea that steamed from the idea of not being able to show who u really are, hiding, mixed with the scribble scene form my first scene. i think the lip scene, while not being so dark, captures the feeling of being silenced abit better being sandwhiched between the two images in the mirror, the first showing that the person does want to ask for help,but the touching of the mirror implying intrapment, and while being alot lighter and less contrasted (in lighting this scene) is doesnt seem so horrific, but still keeps its power.i used cross fades as the transition of choice and this was done to show one moment blurring into another which is what is often felt. like its all leading on from each other. and i also used the diary for the start and final images because of the idea that what we are seeing is the visual interpriation of the diary. The music played an important role in helping to order the visuals, as well as choosing to edit alot slower rahter then the style before of just POWPOWPOW one image after another flashing on screen. I also decided to take abit of a surrealist idea in the 'dream sequence' which is the candles surrounding the objects of self harm and sucide, and then showing the person waking up, but it doesnt end after she does. my favourite scenes are the two start 'numbs' the skin one and the hand one, just because they fit so well in with the music, and prob the least fave part is the 'still' from the video of the scribbled out face with the numb wrote on it, just due to the fact that it looks to static, the other images that i used 'stills' from the video doesnt look to bad because they are editing amongst other things, and if i had to redo one thing it would to animate that still slightly. Personnally i am alot more confident in this piece then i was my original video (before christmas) and feels it works alot better as a piece.
1 May 2010
MY WORK- the editing and abit of 'splaining
So i had to take a slightly different approach to editing this video in comparison to my video before handin. Mainly because of the music soundtrack im using is alot slower, so instead of using all fast cuts, i used alot more transitions and alot slower shots, i even desided to film some panning shots to add more movement to the video, which actually works really well with the music i chose to use. it adds more of a flow to it. I also gave it a title, 'diary of a selfharmer' mainly because the intro shots and finishing shots are going to be of a diary, but also because i wanted to show slightly the progress between what happens when this person has the breakdown. By having the dairy at the start and at the finish i feel it adds more of a narrative to it, such as the idea that what the audience is seeing is a direct visual representation of the feelings this person is putting in the diary. Also going from what my lecturer said to me to try and encorperate some of the lyrics into the video as words, which ive done by filming shots of close ups of the body with text on it. as well as that, i did try and add the visuals to fit well with the lyrics. at one point it says a line about screaming and the visual on screen matches up. at some points i did find it hard to edit with the song, others it came alot more easy. i used alot of cross fade transitions but thought carefully about when they should been added.
i also chose to include some stills from the video in the video if that makes sence? i took the shots that wasnt working very well (even sometimes after i reshoot them! mainly the banages shots) and took a single frame from them, working as like a photograph and encorperated that into the video,which isnt exactly what i planned on doing but i addapted my work to fit what was psycially possible.
i also chose to include some stills from the video in the video if that makes sence? i took the shots that wasnt working very well (even sometimes after i reshoot them! mainly the banages shots) and took a single frame from them, working as like a photograph and encorperated that into the video,which isnt exactly what i planned on doing but i addapted my work to fit what was psycially possible.
30 April 2010
MY WORK- lip scene
so when its come to doing the big 'shocker' scene with the lip. i wanted to experiement with a few ideas that i had.
one was the straight forward lip scene reshot in better lighting and with the lipring hole recovered so it looks like its broken through the skin.
the second was a more gorey version of the lip thing using some fake blood.
and the third was to try and edit a transparency of this scene, over someone talking or someone trying to tlk and like stopping before they can.
so while filming i was going to experiment with all three ideas and compaire to which i think would work best expesh along with the music.
out of my three ideas, the one that worked was the simple version, the gorey version didnt work due to the nature of the song, but also the fact that the blood wasnt the right consistancy and didnt 'run' enough
and the overlay just looked very over/ complicated. which didnt really suit the rest of the video.
one was the straight forward lip scene reshot in better lighting and with the lipring hole recovered so it looks like its broken through the skin.
the second was a more gorey version of the lip thing using some fake blood.
and the third was to try and edit a transparency of this scene, over someone talking or someone trying to tlk and like stopping before they can.
so while filming i was going to experiment with all three ideas and compaire to which i think would work best expesh along with the music.
out of my three ideas, the one that worked was the simple version, the gorey version didnt work due to the nature of the song, but also the fact that the blood wasnt the right consistancy and didnt 'run' enough
and the overlay just looked very over/ complicated. which didnt really suit the rest of the video.
29 April 2010
cutting moments
warning this video is very graphic, and even makes me cringe! it is a scene from the film cutting moments. someone told me about this clip in relation to my lip scene. it is very graphic but almost insinuates the feelings that i want that scene in my video to give, that feeling that u cant talk to someone, u cant cope with not being able to tell someone what ur bottling up and in the end it results in this scene with a woman scouering and cutting her own lips off. it is rather shocking.
26 April 2010
MY WORK- scribble-effect
Also from my previous video i really liked the effect of the scribble on the paper, so i am going to use that again in this video but changing it abit to improve it. instead of over text like before im going to create a scene where you see a close up of the person scribbling over a photo, an extreame close up and then showing you a collection of images on the wall all of the same person with there faces scibbled out. it reminded me of the beginning of the pearl jam video jeremy. where we see him inthe woods scribbling. also it reminded me of a scene from that great horror classic 'the ring' in which we see images of scribbled out faces, and circles scribbled to signify the well she died in. its just a powerful imagery i feel, and shows agression or one way a person lets out the anger in away which isnt dangerous
the ring trailor:
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example of 'scribble effect' at 1:28- 1:30
the ring trailor:
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example of 'scribble effect' at 1:28- 1:30
Franklyn
Franklyn is a complicated story based around three people. Emilia, milo and david. each with there own differnt problems. it all takes very different looks at mental health issuses and also features self harming and suiside.
Emilia is a troubled woman who constantly is trying to make attempts on her own life. struggling with her past and a somewhat abusive father who died, and a mother who liked to act like nothing happened. Emilia films her own suiside attempts for her collage art project.
Milo was resently dumped by his soon to be wife, and goes into termoil believing that his childhood sweetheart was following him. he tracks her down at there old school and arranges to meet her.he mentions it to his mother, who turns around and tells him that sarah his childhood sweetheart, was actually an invisible friend he made up when there father left them, and now that he once again is down and feeling alone she turns up again. and that it is all in his head.
David lives in a neo gothic fantacy world where he interperates the real world as something its not, after having a breakdown returning from iraq to find his sister died from a hit and run. His alter ego is jon priestly and lives in meanwhile city. this personally is the most interesting character because as we see his father searching for him we see characters in there real state, as well as how david views them in meanwhile city. it climaxes as he trys to shoot his own father or the 'individual' because he blames him for the death of his sister 'the girl he couldnt save.'
this film is a real unusal take and look at mental health, and i love how all of the storys intertwine.
Emilia is a troubled woman who constantly is trying to make attempts on her own life. struggling with her past and a somewhat abusive father who died, and a mother who liked to act like nothing happened. Emilia films her own suiside attempts for her collage art project.
Milo was resently dumped by his soon to be wife, and goes into termoil believing that his childhood sweetheart was following him. he tracks her down at there old school and arranges to meet her.he mentions it to his mother, who turns around and tells him that sarah his childhood sweetheart, was actually an invisible friend he made up when there father left them, and now that he once again is down and feeling alone she turns up again. and that it is all in his head.
David lives in a neo gothic fantacy world where he interperates the real world as something its not, after having a breakdown returning from iraq to find his sister died from a hit and run. His alter ego is jon priestly and lives in meanwhile city. this personally is the most interesting character because as we see his father searching for him we see characters in there real state, as well as how david views them in meanwhile city. it climaxes as he trys to shoot his own father or the 'individual' because he blames him for the death of his sister 'the girl he couldnt save.'
this film is a real unusal take and look at mental health, and i love how all of the storys intertwine.
25 April 2010
the chumscrubber
a friend of mine recomended the chumscrubber to me when i told her i was looking at music videos featuring suiside and being me, im always open to watch a new film. This film was very useful and very interesting. its a very dark film and takes a look on the reality of subberban american life. It makes statements about how american familys view there own family, and deals with the idea of drug taking to make us happy, and suicide. the main character is dean and the story begins as we see him discover his best friends suiside. amongst all the sub-plots between familys, teenagers who kidnap a young boy and when they tell there parents they think its a joke, the main underlying theme is how dean copes with the death of his friend troy, who in the end he ends up imagining him places and talking to him. over all it is a very random film, but the torment felt by dean is very hard hitting.i really think the scene in which dean breaks down after 'seeing' troy is very touching and very well acted. as well as the scene shared by troys mother, and dean when dean breaks down and tells troys mother what her son was really like. there was one peice of editing that really stood out for me and that was the scene where troys mother is digging in the garden late at night the day before troys memorial and we see dean in bed, troubled, and the scene is juxtaposed together, bringing them together by montaging them together. and i also liked the mix of videogame and reality. this film was well worth the watch and has been useful to see another take on the idea of suiside and how it effects those who love us.
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while i couldnt find an actual video of the scenes i wanted, this 'music' fan video uses some of the footage from the film, including the part in which dean sees troy.
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while i couldnt find an actual video of the scenes i wanted, this 'music' fan video uses some of the footage from the film, including the part in which dean sees troy.
24 April 2010
MY WORK- first shot
the first shot of my video, i want to keep similar to the start of the video i did for last term. using a diary style entry to introduce the video. however the last video the diary part took to long. and it really didnt turn out how i wanted it to. so i am going to try and change it slightly. Rather then having the text wrote on before, or actually writing it out like i did with the previous video, i wanted to try and almost 'stopstart' animate the text appearing on the diary, but i want it abit jittery, rather then just sorta popping up, so if the diary moves slightly it is giving abit of movement. i was thinkin of using the idea from the 'what sarah said video' where it has a piece where there is no music before hand just silence. but i think i will wait until i edit the final whole video to see if it will work or not.
i know i wanted to keep it in black and white, however i dont want it to be as dark as it was for my last video so i will think about abit more natural light and reflectors if needed.
as for the text, i was going to use lyrics from the song, however the song is wrote as if its someone looking in, watching someone self harm rather then first person, so the text im going to use is just going to be a short piece just saying how hard it is to pretend but no one would understand.
so heres what i got for the start, and i really like the mix of shots, and where i was moving behind the camera infront of the light source (which purely i didnt realise until i played back the footage slower) i got this great strobing effect over the stop start of the diary entry. which gives it that jittery effect that i said before that i wanted to achieve. i really like the extablishing shot of the diary as well.
I did try the footage both with and without sound (see below) as i originally wanted to create an opening without the music, however looking at it it didnt really work as without sound it just didnt seem right. However putting the music over the top it would appear that it almost perfectly fits with the guitar playing before the lyrics start, although i would need to extend it slightly but i could either do that at the start (the panning shot) or at the end where we can see the whole diary entry for a few more seconds, to settle i will prob experiment with both, but overall i really like this start. I was thinking of fading in from black also,rather then just straight into the video!
i know i wanted to keep it in black and white, however i dont want it to be as dark as it was for my last video so i will think about abit more natural light and reflectors if needed.
as for the text, i was going to use lyrics from the song, however the song is wrote as if its someone looking in, watching someone self harm rather then first person, so the text im going to use is just going to be a short piece just saying how hard it is to pretend but no one would understand.
so heres what i got for the start, and i really like the mix of shots, and where i was moving behind the camera infront of the light source (which purely i didnt realise until i played back the footage slower) i got this great strobing effect over the stop start of the diary entry. which gives it that jittery effect that i said before that i wanted to achieve. i really like the extablishing shot of the diary as well.
I did try the footage both with and without sound (see below) as i originally wanted to create an opening without the music, however looking at it it didnt really work as without sound it just didnt seem right. However putting the music over the top it would appear that it almost perfectly fits with the guitar playing before the lyrics start, although i would need to extend it slightly but i could either do that at the start (the panning shot) or at the end where we can see the whole diary entry for a few more seconds, to settle i will prob experiment with both, but overall i really like this start. I was thinking of fading in from black also,rather then just straight into the video!
Self harm music videos continued
Darkane- innocence gone
This video is rather disturbing to me, the story is about a young girl, a child, who is raped by a guy. seemingly the images are cut quick and very cleverly done however its the subject that really is abit disturbing. within the last 20seconds it shows the girl cutting herself and again it does go for the less subtle 'gore' rather then other ways they could do it. however is gore really needed to get the point across of how disturbing it actually is?
Linkin park- Numb
While this video has no real obvious linkage to self harming, apart from scars that can be briefly seen in one of the scenes, i wanted to include this video because it really sorts of shows alot of the emoitions felt when someone is depressed or dealing with self destruction issues. i really like some of the scenes and the actress portrays the anger and frustration as well as the lonelyness very well. i love the scene where everyones rushing past and shes just sat there still.
Between the trees- the way she feels
This video is very cleverly done. we never see any blood or gore, and it tells the story of two girls who cut at the same time. one girl whos father has died and thats why shes cutting, the other a girl whos father discovers her blades for cutting. its got a great ending, that when she witnesses the other girls father's pain as he finds his daughter cutting at school, that she gives up cutting for her father and leaves the blade on his grave. theres one bit of imagery that i loved in this video and thats the blade in the jewerly box. its just very hitting, almost suggesting that that girl sees the blade as a precious object.
death cab for a cutie- what sarah said
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This video is prob the best shot video i have analysed for this. i just love how its shot, every angle, every movement was very well designed. the translations of what 'sarah' wrote: On the mirrior: "He loves me." On her hand: "A little?" On the wall: "Much!" On her arm: "Passionately." The cuts on her leg: "Madly." The addition to the mirror changes it to say "He does not love me at all." The song repeats, she writes "He loves me" again and tries again. which really helps you to translate the video as it were. the shots i really liked where the mirror shot, the shots of the guy having his breakdown (angles were good) and reminded me of my video from xmas handin.) and i just really love the look of this video!
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